friendship...

She's the best, and I'm lucky to have her as my friend. She's telented and smart. We talk about religion, music, people, urban life, hard life... life.. life.. life.. I like her thinking skills. She never forget to give me an advice. She gave me "power" to open my eyes. When you talk about KL people, all we have is PLASTIC and LIED. Poyo and macam sial. But Thank GOD she's serani from Penang and i never thinking of loosing her. Both of us can't live without music... May God bless our FRIENDSHIP, Georgina Ann and Mariah Airiens...

hui loo farewell

hui loo and me


sock hoon and me


my fav chinese guy... "best friend" tuck fai and me


biying, hui loo, me and poh yet




friends, sisters and brothers...
farewell huiloo...
kawan melanjutkan degree ke australia.
so jealous sebab tidak dapat fly bersama-sama. blum rezeki aku lagi dapat offer. but kawan-kawan lain still ada sini la...

KDU COLLEGE (diploma in mass communication)

Think about it

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak
Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat
Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion
Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven
Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets
Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet
And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around
Life is a gift Live it... Enjoy it... Celebrate it... And fulfill it.
And while you are at it give love to someone today
Love someone with what you do and the words you say
Love is not meant to be kept locked inside of us and hidden
So give it away
"Give Love to someone today!"

BITCHology

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
they call me a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love,
they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind,
think my own thoughts or dothings my own way,
they call me a bitch.
Being a bitch means
I won't compromise what's in my heart.

It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice andspeak against it,
I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when
I take time formyself instead of being everyone's maid.
It means I have the courage and strength
to allow myself to be who
I truly am and won't become
anyone else's idea of whatthey think
I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I want what I want and there isnothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame,
try to squash every ounce of beauty I holdwithin me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch,
so be it.

I embrace the title and am proud to bear it !!!!

my best friend passed away

Papu was a unique individual. He was talkative and perceptive, kind and honest, possessing a quick wit and a questioning mind. Papu, my best friend, tragically passed away on Feb 23rd, 200. He was 21 years old plus. I knew him as the guy I could call when I was having trouble... someone who would say "stay right there, I'll be there in ten minutes." He was the guy I could ask if my make up was suit to my dress or what his thoughts of Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, YB Masrani Parman or even my dad. I can't let him go, but what can I do...

Mohd Saidie Aliasah, May Your Soul Rest In Peace...

dying...

life seem to be funny....sometimes you cant be the way you want to be..sometimes life i just something you have to live through it..you know that it wont work out somehow you want to try....the feeling inside you....unexplainable...is a feeling that will urge you to keep on trying..is pointless posting up all my journal at here... maybe you guys think the purpose of me posting to because i need desparate attention or anything..whatever is it.....is just that my heart tells me to write it here...sometimes im sick of life....is not the way i want them to be...the way you guys see my life is not the way i see them...you may think is perfect..well is not...im not independent..im not strong..i have to admit that....yes...i need my friends..those souls who had touch me...yes..indeed i could never think of another way to repay them...

they help me through...they thought me a new chapter of life...the true face of humans and people....your friends might seem to be closed and call you girlfriends behind you....they sneered and glare at each other when you do something stupid..yes..i have that kind of friends...im not gonna state friends...but i know...who's my true friends and where i stand...i just have to draw a line....i can only express myself to limited person....maybe when i speak i hurt someone indirectly...and if i do..im really sorry....everyone got their bad part..and mine?i hurt ppl without knowing it...yes...im truly sorry..and i didnt intend to hurt you...anyone....i knew he didnt belong to m...i knew that he would left me one day....but i keep on denying...i live in a world where i tell lies to make myself feel better....telling myself that he still loves me didnt work..i tried my best....i gave everything i could...i guess my best wasnt enough....it was till that day..when he finally gave up..i knew the feelings that he had for me was gone long time....i gave myself hope..false hope... they said is better than nothing....well...is true...it was hope that keep me going till today....i miss him..im not going to deny it...call me stupid....but im still here..somehow hoping that he will come back...

but...somepart of me was relieve that he lefti neednt live in a world of lies anymore..im sad...at least im not lying to myself..i believe that our live is set and donewe are just here to complete what is the journey...but somehow i believe if you pray things will change..in a way..little ny little to better.....i know there's a guy for me..my perfect one.....who would love me for who i am...who would actually still love me when my face get wrinkle...one that can make me fall madly in love with him again....even though there's crush....but no one can ma ke me feel that way..and i wonder when will i meet that guy.....it takes time and i think is worth the wait....but is okay...cause i know i will always have my bestfriend with me...and i love them for being there for me...in other way they are always supporting me...thank you...without you guys i wouldnt be here..i wouldnt be what i am today....love you guys to deathh.....

in life there's better thing to do....if you believe in yourself...just go ahead...do not regret the next time you look back..ill never regret loving him for he had tought me something...ill always remember we used to share love together...when im old..i will never regret....cause i tried my best to save the relationship...but it was him that ruin it....i believe one day...when he see me on streets again..he will regret...i know he will...but right now...im just thanful for everything that had happen...love you guys to death...